For me, this was one of those edge of your seat episodes, one of those ones that without even realising it, you suddenly notice that you’ve creeped forward in your chair and you’re perched precariously on the edge, ready to tumble if the Winchesters do. Which of course they don’t. Because hey, those Winchesters were never going to tumble, because of my gosh, they were the baddest badassed dudes I know them to be. Dangerous, deadly, badassed and massively hot! Hot, hot, HOT! Sorry but they were and I ain’t gunna hide the fact that a couple of times I thought I was going to spontaneously combust from the hotness! I may have omitted little squeaking noises, and by may have I mean I did! I like nothing better than in sync Winchesters. Whether it’s emotionally, as one knows exactly what’s going on with the other; whether its frivolously and the talking at the same time thing which is always adorable; or whether it’s in battle, subtle hand movements, nods of heads and wordless glances telling each other exactly what to do. A well oiled, terrifying team. Sometimes I forget how terrifying they can be… If I didn’t love them so, they’d scare the shit out of me!
Dean’s never been the best at being alone, and you know what, neither has Sam. For Dean, we know it goes back to a life fearing being left, of feelings of lack of worth. The alone thing has come up again and again, and though he’s made great inroads over the last few years in overcoming (or maybe burying better) a lot of those anxieties as his and his brother’s relationship evened out and other people came into their lives and offered love, being alone with nothing but his thoughts is not a healthy place for Dean to be….like ever. Not just for the reason that being left is one of his greatest fears, but also, being left with nothing but the darkness that we know is in his mind? Nup. Dean feeling trapped and helpless is never a good place for Dean to be emotionally - whether it’s the impending doom of the Mark of Cain, or not being able to help those he loves, he turns inwards and turns on himself. So locking him up, no music, no company, not even any physical torture to focus on…nothing but his mind and what lives within there…I can see it could get real dark, real quick for Dean.
And we’ve seen how dark Sam can get and how hopeless he can feel without his brother. We also know that Sam has equally scary, horrid memories that his day to day generally keeps him from focusing on. But in complete solitude, in complete silence, one day the same as the next and the next and the next laid out in front of you, for a length of time that you can’t predict or possibly comprehend. Mental torture can break people far quicker than physical torture. Being left with your own thoughts is bad enough when you’re just normal, everyday people, I mean, think how much your brain over reacts to stuff when you’re lying awake at night, now imagine if you had the stuff in your brain that Sam and Dean have…. Yikes!
For Dean, making the deal with Billie would make the most sense out of any option in front of them. Before their isolation really started to take it's toll. No one knew where they were, the brothers didn’t even know where they were. Dean couldn’t be sure they would ever get out, that anyone would ever come for them. Dean was already etching the days into the wall…six weeks of being totally alone, without hope and with just his own thoughts. Thoughts of how to get the hell out of there. If he could at least ensure Sam survived… That’s been Dean’s life’s purpose anyway, make sure Sam survives. But beyond that, if he could at least ensure one of them could get out, back to their mother, back to the fight. One Winchester would be better for the world than no Winchesters, right? Even in a space where Dean hadn’t spent six weeks in silence, spinning every single idea he could come up with through his mind, probably over and over and over and over, it would still be an decent (and pretty Dean like) plan.
Of course, exactly the same thing could be said for Sam, because you know, when Billie came to him to say Dean had a plan, Sam would have instantly thought, well if I can just save Dean, if one of us can survive this and get out of here, if I can make sure Dean lives, it’s a good plan. They would’ve both been contemplating sacrificing themselves for the other, if the deal was unbreakable. Bottom line, they’re family, it’s not such a stretch to think any of us would make the same decision if the circumstance arose.
The following escape was breathtaking. Running through the trees, the boys looked strong and fierce and fucking magnificent. Good grief! I kept thinking, Dean would feel kinda at home in that forest, as the surroundings were so Purgatoryesque! (Of course the location was probably Purgatory which kinda helped!). They we like one organism, speaking without saying a word, having shorthand conversations about the mysterious thing they weren’t talking about, calculating the hours to dark so they could set a trap.
I let out a gasp of glee when Dean said the line from Cool Hand Luke about a failure to communicate…that is one of my all time favourite movies! Then the whole, “We’re not trapped out here with you, you’re trapped out here with us” thing…GOOD GODALMIGHTY! Badasses Dean Winchester to infinity and beyond! I nearly lost my shit! Like…nope, I can’t even. I’m not sure if I squealed or growled…probably both. And I can picture Jensen reading that line in the script and being so damn stoked! He would have freakin' loved it. He loves badassed Dean.
Mary of course was off being Mary. I don’t need her to be making those boys pie or anything, but I do wish she’d at least give the appearance of caring a little more. Okay I know she cares, and I know this is probably an unpopular opinion, and I know she’s trying to work things out in the weirdness she finds herself surrounded by, but the world is bigger than just her and I really need more from her in relation to her family. I’m hoping this incident with Sam and Dean, and seeing the photo that Dean treasures and keeps by his bed, may be the wake up call that makes her stow her crap a bit (as Cas would say), and open herself up to actually having a relationship with her sons. Because they didn’t call her, because right now, why would they? As Cas said, she was out. I think the boys probably equal parts want to let her do her thing, and are not really sure she wants to be involved in their lives anyway…hunting or otherwise. Okay I’m done.
Then we have the British Men of Letters coming to assist, who just got a nice little in with the American hunters by helping locate the Winchesters. As Mick said, it’s good business. They want the American hunters to let them into their world and take their orders from the British Men of Letters, and that just ain’t gunna happen. The American hunters value their independence, that spirit of freedom they have, like Sam and Dean riding the back roads, answering to no one but themselves. But if the BMoL can get the Winchesters onboard… Not that I think Sam and Dean are going to capitulate any time soon, but if Mick and Mr Ketch continue to show themselves to be allies (yeah right), and maybe get Mary onboard….though Mary could be playing them to get more information as to what they really want….time will tell on that one which way it goes. I really liked Wally, by the way, and his soft hands line!
I just don’t know where we’re going with the British Men of Letters, I absolutely have zero trust in anything they’re doing - I’m siding eyeing everything! I think Sam and Dean will end up trying to work with them and then find that they do not like their methods. The boys were careful to not kill one of those soldiers, and Mr Ketch went and killed them all. Leave no one behind who can identify anyone or cause problems later is their method - and that is not how the brothers work the work, at least not anymore. But I won’t deny I did quite enjoy Mick and Mr Ketch in this episode, I find them far more intriguing than Lady Toni was. I loved how blown away they were by the Lucifer thing (I didn’t think they had a clue about that), and maybe that’s an eye opener for them as to the level of hunter they’re dealing with when they deal with the Winchesters. And Mick listens to The Specials, which was kind of awesome.
Oh, oh and Crowley! The only one who never underestimates the boys. I loved him. I want him to be the King of Hell again. Sassy and nasty. “I pity the fool”. Brilliant.
So our People’s Choice winning show is back and it came back with a doozy! I absolutely loved “First Blood”, it felt like a damn movie! It had an amazing slow burn build into that fantastic escape scene. I loved the script - it was pretty serious for the most part, but it still managed to have a few good gags - and the brothers…well colour me eternally surprised at how they can get more and more awesome, and more and more stunning! They even make prison jumpsuits look damn fine! Bless the Winchesters. I’m so glad our Show is back!
Let me know what you thought of the episode!
Until next time…